longing for love

I've been having a aching in my heart lately, like lead at the bottom of your lungs...I feel that when I read my Bible I go under spiritual attack or something....or maybe it's the the prolonged stress or pressure of the mornings and nights. Maybe just character growing pains. Forgiveness I need to give...bitterness I need to give up. I don't know. On my knees and looking to the Healer for help.