So during RA training, on our taff has 15 minute life stories. Where each person tells their life story. They are able to share whatever they want without interruption. Everyone so far has shared something(s) very personal in their life. It was my turn tonight and I just couldn't do it. I actually have have told 3 people on my staff some of my story involving my Dad and how that's affected my life. But for some reason I just held back and couldn't share it. I don't know if it was because it was in a large group so I didn't feel comfortable or if there was just certain people in the room that I wasn't comfortable with knowing. The problem with being a private,reserved person is that it's hard to share personal stuff even when it is in a safe environment.
Now I wish I had just because it really does explain why I am the way that I am. Which is kinda cool and weird at the same time. My friend De said that she could tell that I was holding back cuz I stopped myself a couple of times from sharing. I kept it fluffy.
Do you do that? Just keep yourself from sharing things in your past ?
This totally makes sense so don't ever be worried if I won't understand your rants ;) I think we've spent enough time together that I can get the jist of about everything~except when you start quoting stuff from like 5 years ago, and then sometimes I'm lost ;) hahahah~oh man I love you! Ummm yes I do that too. Like I have to be at a certain level just to like blah out everything you know!! And I think your dad stuff you are still healing from you know, so it's going to be hard to put it in word and wrap it all up into something that would be usable for a big group~i dunno that's my opinion~kk off to school to teach the wild children English.......miss you :( thank you for the notes in my teacher planner~they help me :D
ReplyDeletehahah yeah funny how that works. We just get each other. It's especially funny when we do the whole nonverbal communication. I think that's a pretty good sign that we've been friends a long time.
ReplyDeleteYeah. Like I told a couple people some of it. But it's not something I can really fully explain to someone that's so far from the situation and doesn't know my family.
I did share about our sign language like the judging mustache and the blink blink. everyone laughed but I'm pretty sure it's going to catch on...